I love this picture, it’s not one of my furbabies, but I love the expression on the cat’s face, kind of like he or she is not too thrilled with getting the picture taken and I know the feeling!
My prayers have been prayers of gratitude lately. My husband has a temporary full-time job and his side business is going well. I am praying that the job turns permanent, if it be in God’s will for it to. I’m also praying for direction in my life. I feel rudderless, lost and at the same time, I feel like I’m doing exactly what I was meant to do. It’s hard to explain, but I’m very happy being a homemaker and taking care of the house, our furbabies and my husband. I love it; the peace and contentment I feel as a result are a blessing to me. Yet, I feel I should be doing more, what that more is, is the issue. I have no idea what God wants me to do with my life. Yes, I have a book to write, a story to share and things to paint to start an Etsy store but for whatever reason, I’m not really working on that right now. And I have no idea why that is.
Please don’t take this as me complaining, because I’m not. God has been most generous with us and I am truly grateful to be at home – because as you know that is all I want in the world, just to be home. Maybe it’s societal pressure, or pressure from family, I don’t know; but, it seems that I should be doing more. I’m conflicted and I don’t know how else to explain it. I want to be a part of society and give back but the other part of me just wants to bury my nose in a good book after doing housework and just exist. Is that wrong? Seriously, I’m asking.
I love just being in the moment. For a very long time, things have been unsettled, and that they are now settled, at least temporarily, is a relief. I’ve been carrying so much worry for a long time that I am enjoying not having to worry for a while. I know I will finish my book and start my Etsy store; I guess I’m just enjoying the peace and contentment that are so rare for someone like me. I know this is a weird post; it’s like what’s the point of this. I guess in the end my point is that life is good right now and it is due to God and I am just simply grateful. When life is going good, savor it, because, unfortunately, it will not last. That’s the nature of this world – everything is temporary!
Blessings to you all,