Things are good, yet I’m conflicted (as usual!)

Things are good, yet I’m conflicted (as usual!)

I love this picture, it’s not one of my furbabies, but I love the expression on the cat’s face, kind of like he or she is not too thrilled with getting the picture taken and I know the feeling!

My prayers have been prayers of gratitude lately.  My husband has a temporary full-time job and his side business is going well. I am praying that the job turns permanent, if it be in God’s will for it to.  I’m also praying for direction in my life.  I feel rudderless, lost and at the same time, I feel like I’m doing exactly what I was meant to do.  It’s hard to explain, but I’m very happy being a homemaker and taking care of the house, our furbabies and my husband.  I love it; the peace and contentment I feel as a result are a blessing to me.  Yet, I feel I should be doing more, what that more is, is the issue.   I have no idea what God wants me to do with my life.  Yes, I have a book to write, a story to share and things to paint to start an Etsy store but for whatever reason, I’m not really working on that right now.  And I have no idea why that is.

Please don’t take this as me complaining, because I’m not.  God has been most generous with us and I am truly grateful to be at home – because as you know that is all I want in the world, just to be home.  Maybe it’s societal pressure, or pressure from family, I don’t know; but, it seems that I should be doing more.  I’m conflicted and I don’t know how else to explain it.  I want to be a part of society and give back but the other part of me just wants to bury my nose in a good book after doing housework and just exist.  Is that wrong?  Seriously, I’m asking.

I love just being in the moment.  For a very long time, things have been unsettled, and that they are now settled, at least temporarily, is a relief.  I’ve been carrying so much worry for a long time that I am enjoying not having to worry for a while.  I know I will finish my book and start my Etsy store; I guess I’m just enjoying the peace and contentment that are so rare for someone like me.  I know this is a weird post; it’s like what’s the point of this.  I guess in the end my point is that life is good right now and it is due to God and I am just simply grateful.  When life is going good, savor it, because, unfortunately, it will not last.  That’s the nature of this world – everything is temporary!

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

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9 Easy Tips for Organizing Your Bedroom

9 Easy Tips for Organizing Your Bedroom

Here is a link to some very good tips on organizing your bedroom, which for some of us is a nightmare.  The article gives good advice and isn’t full of fluff, so it’s useful!  I know I seriously need to work on my bedroom; it has no personality – got to work on that.  I want to buy new bedding and repaint it, but finding the time to do that is another problem all in itself.  Besides, trying to find something that both my husband and I would like is going to be a challenge in and of itself.  If he had his way, it would be decorated in camouflage!  Anyway, here’s some help organizing your bedroom.

https://www.thespruce.com/tips-for-organizing-your-bedroom-4114234?utm_campaign=artcraftsl&utm_medium=email&utm_source=cn_nl&utm_content=9902787&utm_term=

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

10 Embroidered Accessories for Gift Giving

10 Embroidered Accessories for Gift Giving

My mother was huge into embroidering.  She would buy what I guess I’d call kits with the canvas and yarn, with instructions included. She would make beautiful embroided artwork and I remember as a child feeling them and all the different textures intrigued me.  I’ve never actually tried it, my thing is painting, but my mother-in-law and I are planning a to have a lunch and Hobby Lobby run and I think I’m going to see if they still sell these sets, because I think I would like to give it a try, in memory of my mother. Below is a link to the different accessories that you can make to either keep or give as gifts and instructions on how to do them.  Have fun!

https://www.thespruce.com/embroidered-accessories-for-gift-giving-4114014?utm_campaign=artcraftsl&utm_medium=email&utm_source=cn_nl&utm_content=9902787&utm_term=

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

Buttery Soft Pretzels

Buttery Soft Pretzels

I love pretzels, always have.  I remember as a small child living on the East Coast, my parents took me to Gettysburg, I think, and bought me a pretzel and, of course, being a small child, I dropped it on the cobbled street.  According to my mother, I let out a piercing scream that reverberated off the old buildings and my dad ran back to the pretzel vendor and bought me another one just to shut me up.  So, I thought I would find a basic pretzel recipe because I want to learn how to make them myself, and share it with you.  Enjoy!

http://allrecipes.com/recipe/24272/buttery-soft-pretzels/

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

Dealing with the being on psychiatric medications

Dealing with the being on psychiatric medications

As you know, I am bipolar and on a plethora of psych meds.  Do I like it?  No, not really, but it is something I have grown to accept as a necessary evil if I want to stay stable.  Trust me, I used to be really cavalier about the meds and go off of them quite frequently in the past and every time, I spiraled out of control.  Now, I’m older and hopefully wiser and I don’t do that anymore, but that doesn’t mean I like the idea of it at all.  It’s difficult to accept you need medication just to get out of the bed in the morning, or to keep the depression demons at bay.  And it’s weird that it’s like that.  Society has no problem with people taking medication for diabetes or heart disease, but once the condition goes above the neck, then society judges you, rather harshly in my opinion, because you’re on medication for mental illness.  Likes it’s some kind of weakness of character, and yeah, that kind of ticks me off.  I don’t appreciate being judged by people who have no idea what it is like to have mental illness, but it is what it is.  Until society evolves a better understanding of mental illness, the ignorance will be rampant.

I do have some suggestions about making the whole taking medicine thing better.  I have seen so many psychiatrists in my life that I have lost count and I couldn’t even tell you all the different medications that have been prescribed to me.  Some with serious side effects; for instance, I gained like 70 pounds because of Seroquel.  I hate that medication.  I have two criteria for the medications I am willing to take. First, the medication has to be weight-neutral, period.  I’m still carrying the weight that the Seroquel put on me.  Second, it has to be generic.  I figure that if it is in generic form than it has been around long enough that if there were any serious side effects, it would be known.  There is no way on God’s green Earth you will get me to take a brand name psych med.  I don’t care how many tests it’s gone through, it is new and they don’t have any idea how the medication is going to do with the general public.

I have no good advice about this really.  It seems to be a case of being wrong no matter what you do, either be judged for taking them or live a difficult life being untreated.  And I think that just sucks, but like I already said, it is what it is.  I want to be stable and be able to function to the best of my ability in society, so the meds are necessary for that to happen.  I wish I didn’t need them, but it is a burden all the mentally ill must carry on some level for the rest of their lives.  I know there are so called natural remedies, and I have tried them and they don’t work for me.  All I can say is that it is something we all need to come to terms with and accept in some form or fashion.  Is it easy? No, not by any means.  Let’s just hope society does evolve and becomes much more understanding and accepting that there are people that don’t fit the norm and that it is totally okay.  I was born this way, accept it, I have to!

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

Gratitude is key to being happy

Gratitude is key to being happy

I’ve talked about gratitude before, how it takes a grateful heart to be happy.  But it was personified this week and I will tell you about it.  My husband and I live on our church’s property; at the back of the property is a mobile home and that is where we live and my husband is the volunteer groundskeeper and maintenance man for the church.  I love my home and being here.  But, we do have a person come by on occasion seeking solace or advice that we do are best to provide.  We aren’t preachers, but we are Christians and we help as we can.  I know my husband has helped some with the church’s food pantry.   Anyway, this week a lady came by and I am going to be cryptic here out of respect for her situation.  She was seeking comfort because her “husband” was being unfaithful and had abandoned her.  All we could say was to come to church, pray, and God will heal her heart.  I truly hope that we offered her help and that she left feeling better.  I pray for her every night.  My heart just went out to her and her situation.

Afterwards, I went and had a shower and was praying for her, thinking about her and I started to think about my own husband.  We have been together thirteen years and never has he abandoned me or even gave me the impression that he was being unfaithful.  I realized then that everything my husband does, he does for me.  Everything!  I am the center of his world and he treats me as I am and I for one am grateful beyond measure to God for giving him to me.  Have we always gotten along?  Nope.  When we returned to God, He made things incredibly better in personal ways I won’t go into here.

I was getting dressed after that shower and my husband came in because he had been looking for me and I was standing there with tears streaming down my face.  He just looked at me, worried and I just looked at him and said, “Thank you.”  He asked for what and I replied, “Because everything you do, you do for me.” He agreed and turned around and went back to what he was doing.  I guess my point is that having the proper perspective on what God truly does for you and gives you is paramount to being grateful and having a happy heart.  I can’t even begin to list all that God has done and is doing for me, but I am so grateful that I even have God in my life and I would want it no other way.  I’ve tried living without Him, and I will never go back to that lifestyle, because it was nothing but pain.  Please give God a chance to heal your heart and help you with your life, you won’t regret it!

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth

How to Transform Driftwood into Home Décor

How to Transform Driftwood into Home Décor

Again, this site has such great ideas!  I saw this and had to share with you.  I love the beach in a deep way that if I could afford it, I would live in a shack as long as it was next to the ocean.  My parents took me to Pismo Beach every summer as a child growing up and I just loved being there; the weather especially, but also just the whole vibe of the area.  My mom had this crazy collection of shells and driftwood and I’m going to be pulling them out and seeing if I can do some of these projects.  As I’ve said, I’m working on a nautical theme for my living room and these driftwood projects would really help.  I especially love the table, which is why I chose that picture to show you.  If you don’t live at the beach, or go to one often; I’m not sure where you would be able to find driftwood.  Maybe at the hobby stores or on Amazon – there has to be somewhere on the internet where you can buy it.  Or, plan a trip to the ocean and go searching for driftwood, sounds more fun!  Either way, I hope you enjoy this and try at least one of these projects.

https://www.thespruce.com/transform-driftwood-into-home-decor-2879098?utm_campaign=artcraftsl&utm_medium=email&utm_source=cn_nl&utm_content=9773858&utm_term=

Blessings to you all,

Elizabeth